Healing Story

September 14th, 2009

Hi,
This is a story about my healing. A few thoughts about healing before we begin our story.

Healing happens in the Identity. Who I am? Or who do I identify as being? Often there is something that one identifies with that is not who they really are. I call this part a discord or impostor.

When this impostor is there is creates problems, and resistance.

If the impostor is recognized. I can choose to no longer identify as being that way any longer. This removes the resistance that was being created by the impostor.

On last Friday, I was triggered by a series of events that ended up making me much later then I wanted to be for going somewhere. A lot of emotions came up for me such as anger, resentment for who had made me late. I just felt horrible. My chest and back tightened up my neck starting hurting. I knew that this was something I did not want to do, but I just could not get out of the funk that I was in.

I know many techniques for relaxing and calming the mind. I told my self that I loved myself and the people involved. I forgave myself for being angry. I told my self to relax and I consciously took deep breaths, but nothing was working. I must say this was very frustrating.

I then started to ask myself what part of me was I identifying with that caused all this resistance to come up. The answer that came to me was that.

I was identifying as being selfish. Rather than identifying as a Creator of my life.

I then thought about all the events that had triggered me as realized that they all triggered me because I was selfish. If I had been identifying as a creator and trusting that all would be well and work out. The events would not have triggered me at all.

So I decided to no longer identify with being selfish. As soon as I did that I relaxed and my body starting just tingling all over since that resistance was no longer there.